all the things

"if you asked me why I love him, I'd be speechless. my love for him is not based on one thing. I can't pinpoint the exact time it went from friend love to love love. but what I do know is I love the feeling his lips on my neck give me, the way his... Continue Reading →

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You're reading this, which means somehow you found my blog. So, as J.D in the 1989 film Heathers said, "Greetings and salutations!” Hi, I'm Ecstacy! No, not like the drug, yes like the feeling, except with a c & not an s. Currently a rising high school senior. Mentee at Operation Street Kidz (OSK). Oldest sister... Continue Reading →

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For someone who says she likes to be alone she sure does hate it She asks to be left alone to not have anyone worry about her or to be concerned about her or to tell her anything she doesn't want to hear But when she's finally to herself all she wants is company to... Continue Reading →


There's no fear. I'm not afraid. I'm not worried about drifting apart or the possibility of losing each other over time. For once this is not something that's scaring me. I'm completely calm about it. And maybe this is because I believe in us so strongly. I have faith that this is going to work.... Continue Reading →

To be different

She takes a seat. Everyone is talking, everyone is conversing. Laughing, a joke is said here, and there. Everyone is just living, and saying jokes and, and they look so happy. That's what she wants to be. Happy. She sits there, quiet, wishing the joke was as funny to her as it was to them.... Continue Reading →


It's getting warmer. The cold is leaving and though I so badly wanted to shield myself from the wind and cool air I find myself missing the feeling I had when it was here. I'd find shelter in layers of sweaters and blankets safety in the warmth of my things. The silence and simplicity in... Continue Reading →

That before me

It's not that I'm tired of it, because believe me I fight through my exhaustion. I can stay awake if I really wanted to. But is it really something to be wearing myself out. I shouldn't be stressing over something that isn't my business to be stressing about. But I make it my business, because... Continue Reading →


You're going to have to love her even when she is being difficult, because that is when she needs it the most. And it's going to be hard, and you're going to wonder if it's even worth it. Please believe it is. She's going to go through times when she is insecure, and scared, and... Continue Reading →


it's not jealousy or at least that's what I tell myself it's insecurity it's not that I don't trust you, because I do and I trust them it's my mind that I don't trust because while you're out there, living life I'm alone, and the only person talking to me is my mind And it's... Continue Reading →

Not a New Year resolution

To start things off, I want it give background. I don't see the big deal about New Year's day. I mean, it's just the first day of another year. It's like celebrating every Sunday since it's the beginning of a new week. Like, celebrating the first of every month. I can understand why people make... Continue Reading →

It’s fucking me up

I read a quote the other day. It said "You either say how you feel and fuck it up or say nothing and let it fuck you up instead." And that really stuck with me. Maybe it's because I felt like it was directed towards me. You know when you're going through something, and you... Continue Reading →

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